ToP Of The WorLd

I HATE BEING SICK

2006-02-17T23:42:00.000-08:00

oh my god.. i'm so sick rite now... i juz wanna puke everything out... so god damn hungry..i din eat anything... gosh..hope i can go out later....

get all soon...

2006-02-11T06:41:00.000-08:00

oh my god ash... please get well soon... i'm so worried for you... was damn scared to leave u dat day... i'm so god damn worried now... pls get well soon.. and i'll give u whatever you wish for... i really wan u to get well soon, wen i saw u today lying on the bed, i almost cried... i'm feeling so useless..god damn it...

2006-02-08T01:31:00.000-08:00

Today's the 8th of feb..and its kinda a big day for me... its been really long... 9 months... and i still love you so much baby... i noe we do fight at times dear, but like wat we believe... a fight dat doesn't kill makes the relationship stronger... our hands link each other so perfectly, lips touches so fine, makes each other feel so complete... and wen u wrap ur arms around me, it lets me noe i'm safe, no matter wat happens to me, i'll be safe... baby, i mean to much to me... all i ever wanted is in you, the love the laughther, a pillow to cry on... u kissing my ters away, is like a rainbow over the waterfall... [baby, no prawns wit *u noe hu* yea] u oni can go to the waterfalls wit me..haha... hehe... i love you so much baby.. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY... MUAXX..

i'm rough.. gosh...

2006-02-06T05:31:00.000-08:00

Today was really tired, so bloody tired... woke up so early for school... and wen i went to school, i had bad news... NAD IS GOIN TO LANGKAWI FOR BOARDING SCHOOL... WAT THE FUCK!!! i really dun wan her to leave, if she does..then class is goin to be so god damn boring, and its goin to suck, the wouldn't be anyone to play and eat in class wit, or talk bout mr. hulam wit anymore... [nad fines him hot] muahhaa... teaching her all the seducing techniques... haha... but yea..the point is she's leaving in 2 weeks... argh.. i feel like slapping her in the face... argh...i'm goin to miss nad alot... its not goin to be fun anymore la... ish... and then, was staying back today, and came back around 4 something....and was really hungry..and tmr need to stay back again until thursday...haih.... hehe.. i miss my babykins... haih... emo la... i love u yang... muaxxx...

2006-02-02T19:03:00.000-08:00

G0d, i'm like t0tally stuck at h0me... feeling s0 irritated, sister g0in 0ut everyday.. t0 frens h0use and all.. its s0 unfair g0d damn it... and he muz take my f0n away, i blo0dy din d0 anything... argghhhh... s0 geram la...

S0me0ne safe me fr0m my living hell, g0sh, 0k..let n0t talk b0ut dat, makes me feel even worst, ish... anyways, shra is quiting the dance, haiz.. and julie is not joining, and nik also, dunno bout tam la... hope she is la... everyone has been like this these few days i heard, i mean u dun haf to talk to ppl like dat... [sayang, i'm not talking bout u, some other ppl] if someone tells you something bout herself, juz listen ok, dun haf to give such comments, well, probably u dun really it, but the next time, let ur word go thu ur head then oni spit it out from ur mouth ok.. dun offend ppl, and wen ppl dun tell you things, u oso start to complain, its really irritating u noe, u're always acting differently, and we noe very well dat its not you.. i dunno la ok, its juz not something we look up to you anymore...

And julie, i'm sori i din make it dat day, i feel really bad, i really wanted to come, i'm sorry ok? i'll make it up to you ok? hehe.. ju. lets go sunway L. one day... i miss dat place.. haha...

And sayang, i miss you so much.... hehe...

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2006-02-01T22:32:00.000-08:00

haiz... juz finished wit tuition..and i'm darn bored now... bloody la..tuition got like hell alot of home work and later tonite got tuition again... arghh... i miss my baby alot.. and my aunt bought white chocolate for me, and it taste so good... yesterday, wednesday.. haha..was the best day i ever had in such a long time... hehe... u noe y la... haha.. yes you... hehe...
woke up this morning... i went for breakfast after talking to my baby, ate nasi lemak.. and the stupid woman chopped my chicken till it looked like digested food... arghh.. then it was tuition.. and stupide teacher was complaining like shit.. and happily tell my mum everything... and got me into shit... arghh... now, all i want is to snuggle my darling... but i'm stuck at home... sayang... come see me... i miss you so much...

fucking lord....

2006-01-31T19:50:00.000-08:00

FUCKING HELL I FEEL SO GAD DAMN FAT....

...smile...

2006-01-21T06:22:00.000-08:00

i wish time would juz stop wen i'm wit you kins!!!

at the begining...

2006-01-18T00:45:00.000-08:00

We were strangers, starting out on a journey...Never dreaming, what we'd have to go through... Now here we are, I'm suddenly standing..At the beginning with you...No one told me I was going to find you...Unexpected, what you did to my heart... When I lost hope, you were there to remind me... This is the start... And life is a road that I wanna keep going... Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing... Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey... I'll be there when the world stops turningI... 'll be there when the storm is through... In the end I wanna be standing... At the beginning with you... We were strangers, on a crazy adventure... Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true... Now here we stand, unafraid of the future... At the beginning with you.. Knew there was somebody, somewhere... A new love in the dark...Now I know my dream will live on I've been waiting so long... Nothing's gonna tear us apart... In the end I want to be standing... At the beginning with you...

this song is like so freking sweet and i love it so much... and it means alot of thing la... anyways...school today was pretty fun, i guess... except fro recess...i had DC... butd reast was ok la... english.mimz and i had ideas bout letters, so i guess its more fun then wat we were suppose to do la.. but more work..need to go to the post office and all oso... ish... mimz mimz mimz... and ppl watch out of her..cuz she like to press ppl's pimple till it burst... ish... anyways, i love my desk, its like really cun... i haf pics of mimz, ash, sha, liz, nik, julie, belle, meer... adn lots more to come la...so dun worry... ah..and ieka and faye... haha... no nude pics ok... i'm a good girl... and i got really irritated wit some ppl today... so god damn irritated... haf u ever felt like u hate someone, and everytime you see her u hate dat person even more... and it gets even worst wen u try to pretend u like her... well, i noe the feeling is there la.. but probably it will fade away soon... i'm sorry for being this way now, i'm juz pissed.. but i'll be fine la... i love all my frens... and my dearkins... hehe... some other time la ppeps k.. i yall... muaxxx...

eyehhhh....

2006-01-16T02:30:00.000-08:00

OH MY GOD.. wat a bitch in the pic? Who is dat??

haha... i'm such a bitch rite?? muahaha

2006-01-16T01:39:00.000-08:00

Yesterday wasn't a really good day of me but it got better to d nite... hehe..yea baby? and yea.. its been long since i've update my blog... lets see yea... firstly, i'm craving for chocolate, white brown or black..i dun care but i wanna eat... *drool* and guess wat, i got into cheer...cant believe i'm a cheerleader in school now... muahaha... more to come.. and i'm like in choir also... haha... its goin to rain more nowadays... becarfull yea peeps... hehe... and lets see in school.. i'm in 4SBakti with miriam and vanu and nad and many more la... and like all knows, i dun like studying at all... i mean hu likes la... acceptional for ZY.. la... haha... like calling her YZ more... and Datin Yap has been really cool in add maths [thinking we're all smart] haha... and all of us really wanted Mrs. Hulam to lecture us for history but we got this unknown teacher.. i duneven noe her name till now... haha.. mimz got a lil *kononnya* warning from Datin Yap... yeala miriam... move so much in class somemore... haha..actaully i blew her ear and gave her a heart attack by goin it and her jumped off her chair... haha... and recess was cool... wit sha and liz and all la... and yes..sha..i will pee wit you... and no..i'm not whining... but u haf to agree wit me dat cheese stick wit sugar in it ROCKS... haha... and ash juz likes playing wit water... i'm serious, she does..check it out...

she like to splash water on me...
she likes to pour water in my tomyam... WEN I'M DRINKING IT!!!
she doesn't allow me to drink her water cuz she's selfish... its all her it seems [but i took it from her in the end la...]
and worst comes to worst, he like washing my hands for me even wen i dun wanna wash it... i wan to wash it in my mouth wit my SALIVA...
and she drinks alot for water... its bad for health ok... *cum cum cum... we go drink cuCUMber... haha...

and yea.. i stayed back today and i'm really tired... so tried even wen i was oni sitting in the class room under the fan... and anyways my baby is so cute...and stop denying it ok... and u're hot... we'll start from 1 then to 2 then to 3... but 4 cant fit izzt?? we'll try to make the bag looser yea... i love you so much baby... muaxxx.......... muuuuaahhh..muuuuaaahhhhh.... *butttt whyyyy???***

DIRTY DANCING

2006-01-10T00:47:00.000-08:00

OH MY GOD..I WANNA DIRTY DANCE FOR YOU IN THE RAIN..MUAHAHA... HEHE..liz... lets go learn salsa and tango..hehe.. and sha..i'll go pee wit you...hehe... faster la.. hehe...

rocky nite...

2005-12-14T00:54:00.000-08:00

its was a really scary nite u noe..tot i was goin to lose u... i've neva felt so lost in my life before... and yet at the same time u were so nice to me... i wish i dun haf to go thu dat feeling again... i wouldn't bare to feel d pain in me... and u noe i wan to be known as the girl who smiles even wen her heart is broken into pieces and will albe be able to make u happy even wen i cant... i'm willing to give up anything like i told u... even my happinest... serioiusly..u haf no idea how much i love you... i really do...

High on a hill was a lonely goatherd

2005-12-04T03:53:00.000-08:00

High on a hill was a lonely goatherdLay ee odl lay ee odl lay hee hooLoud was the voice of the lonely goatherdLay ee odl lay ee odl-ooFolks in a town that was quite remote heardLay ee odl lay ee odl lay hee hooLusty and clear from the goatherd's throat heardLay ee odl lay ee odl-ooO ho lay dee odl lee o, o ho lay dee odl ayO ho lay dee odl lee o, lay dee odl lee o layA prince on the bridge of a castle moat heardLay ee odl lay ee odl lay hee hooMen on a road with a load to tote heardLay ee odl lay ee odl-ooMen in the midst of a table d'hote heardLay ee odl lay ee odl lay hee hooMen drinking beer with the foam afloat heardLay ee odl lay ee odl-ooOne little girl in a pale pink coat heardLay ee odl lay ee odl lay hee hooShe yodeled back to the lonely goatherdLay ee odl lay ee odl-ooSoon her Mama with a gleaming gloat heardLay ee odl lay ee odl lay hee hooWhat a duet for a girl and goatherdLay ee odl lay ee odl-ooUmmm (ummm)...Odl lay ee (odl lay ee)Odl lay hee hee (odl lay hee hee)Odl lay ee ...... yodeling ...One little girl in a pale pink coat heardLay ee odl lay ee odl lay hoo hooShe yodeled back to the lonely goatherdLay ee odl lay ee odl-ooSoon her Mama with a gleaming gloat heardLay ee odl lay ee odl lay hmm hmmWhat a duet for a girl and goatherdLay ee odl lay ee odl-ooHappy are they lay dee olay dee lee o ...... yodeling ...Soon the duet will become a trioLay ee odl lay ee odl-ooOdl lay ee, old lay eeOdl lay hee hee, odl lay eeOdl lay odl lay, odl lay odl lee, odl lay odl leeOdl lay odl lay odl layHOO!

ur the best

2005-12-03T21:58:00.000-08:00

u mite think ur not good enuf... but i'm telling you dat u r... one thing i noe for sure is u wil never lose me.. it will oni be me losing you... we talk bout it las nie and i hurs so much...i'm so scared... i'm always wondering if i'l be as important as ***** to you... she seems so important to you dat it makes me jealous... will i ever haf dat effect on u?? i'm afraid u will forget me one day... ***** reminds u bout lots of thing and i dunno wether it makes you feel good or bad or nice... i dun wanna ask u in case it hurts u... hurts me too see u hurting... espacially wen u were trying to eat so hard at ur grams place dat day... anyways, so yea...wat more can i ask for wen i haf you... u're the ost wonderfull thing dat ever happen to me.. and i'm happy...so happy... i miss you baby... lots of thing happen between us and its engraved in me... i've never regrated all i've done wit you... i love you so much dear...and will always till d end of time... muaxx.... i'll let u noe more in time k... and dear...i'm sorry i was bein such a bitch dat day... i told u before dat one final day i will annoy you and it did happen... and i bet i'm still doin it now... pls tell me wen i am k... shut me up... i really dun wanna annoy u anymore... i love you baby... wit all my heart..muaxx...

2005-12-01T01:02:00.000-08:00

i'm back from paris and al... i went to many places actaully... vienna milan germany and all la... but i'm so glad i'm back.. i seriously am... its like damn cold there and i feel so lonely there... things there a so freaking expensive and i cant spend like a queen like i always do... gosh... anyways, it was all ok... some bad and disneyland was okokla... i miss my frens... i miss miriam, juli, ash, i miss my baby, i miss my ballet classes... i miss using my fon and i miss goin on9.. and i miss all my pther patricks dat i din bring... i miss home... i miss my dear... and thank god i'm back now... haha... and its not dat i dun wanna talk to you.... i juz wanted to talk to mimz first... well' she actually tried to sms me... and it got thu... does hurt to try ok... and i wanted to tell you this juz now... but u hanged up before i could... ***** i am happy for both of you**** u juz din gime a chance to say it...

babykins....read all the posted ups k...

2005-11-15T03:56:00.000-08:00

baby...i'm leaving soon... and i alredi miss you like hell... i'm goin to miss you even more later baby... so much.... there r so many things i wanna tell you now... so many things i wanna rite... dun let anthing heppen wen i'm gone k.. its juz two weeks.. i'm coming back to ur arms soon baby... and my heart has never and will never leave you... wheather i'm far away or juz by ur side... my heart has never felt ou at all... and babykins, i love you... so much...ok.... liste here k... no flirrting wit a chics k... no drinking... ur head ache is getting bad... k... and if you do get ur headache.. remember to take a panado... ONE...PILL.. I MEAN IT... ONI ONE... NO GETTING ADDICTED ANYMORE K... and u noe wat you usually do k.. not so much, [u noe the thing i always try to take away from you?? yea dat thing... not so much k].... and baby... wait for me to come back... this is not a break up k... my heart is wit you and always will k.. baby.. you remember to eat ur meals in time k.. real food and not junk... and sayang, i love you so much... [baby, read up all the post i rote before this k??] sayang i love you so much.. and i will love you more and more as each day passes.. i love you baby... i'll be back soon baby... wait for me k.. i love you...

2005-11-14T20:21:00.000-08:00

hey..dear... i'm missing you like hell now...
i love you so much............... i wanna tell you so many things now... but i guess i wanna show it to you later k... words ain't enuf for me... i love you babykins...

baby...

2005-11-13T16:50:00.000-08:00

i'm leaving tmr alredi.. and i wanna see you real bad... i'm trying my best to come over to see you today and give you a surprise... my surprises never worked on you... but i hope this time it does...anyways, i'm goin off tmr alredi and dear... pls dun worry k... i'm not goin to noe anyone else there... my heat is here wit you and i dun haf any interest in anyone else... i dun you dun believe in ralationships but i'll show it to you one day dat you'll be able to trust wan... i'll show it to you on tiz trip... giving me a choice i really dun wanna go... and i'm not even there yet... and i cant wait to get back to see you... dear, i can go all over the world but i choose to be wit you cuz life will be much happier and better... dear, dun push me away k... i really wanna be there for you loving and caring for you... let me be there for you k pls....... and baby i hope today wen i come and see you... u wouldn't haf any dates on ur break.. hehe... i love you baby... muaxxx....

u're not alone...

2005-11-10T18:38:00.000-08:00

you may feel like u're alone... but u;re not dear... u're really not... it mite no help if i say it.. and time will show you... i noe its hard waiting for something... but at times dats all you juz haf to do... i'll be waiting wit you.. dun worry... i noe it will be a hard time for you now... but things will go better... i promise... dear it mite seem like the world is not by ur side anymore... and i noe it matters alot to you... bout ur frens and all... i noe their important to you... and i assure you dat they r not leaving you... i assure...and i'm NOT leaving you... dat for sure... i'l be there wen ever ou need me... loving you and caring for you... i'll the time... i love you... dear, i love you.......... if there anything call me... please k...... well i do talk to you all the time... but do tell me wen something is wrong k... i love you baby...

i miss you baby...

2005-11-09T20:36:00.000-08:00

baby... wen i'm gone.. i'm goin to miss you hell of alot you noe.... so very much.. and baby... u gotta wait for me to come back yea.. and remember to miss me k... i'll come back soon... u take care of ur self and no flirting wit anyone else but me... i'll call you wen ever i can k baby... i'll call you wen ever i can... hehe... baby, i'll really miss you wen i'm gone... promise me ull take care and wait for me to come back k baby... pls k... i love you baby... so very much... u pls eat ur meals in time and take care and... and no flirting... and u noe wat... and u noe wat too... hehe.. baby.. wen i come back... i promise k... i love you so much baby.. so much... u're working now... and i really miss you... i'll talk to u later beby... i love you so much..muaxx....

i miss you baby...

2005-11-09T20:35:00.000-08:00

i neeed to leave to somewhere i belong and noe i'll be albe to stay happy...

2005-11-08T18:32:00.000-08:00

There's people talking...They talk about me...They know my name...They think they know everything...But they don't know anything...About me...Give me a dance floor...Give me a dj...Play me a record...Forget what they say...Cause I need to go...Need to getaway tonight...I put my makeup on a saturday night...I try to make it happen...Try to make it all right...I know I make mistakes...I'm living life day to day...It's never really easy but it's ok...Wake Up...Wake Up...On a saturday night...Could be New York...Maybe Hollywood and Vine...London, Paris maybe Tokyo...There's something going on anywhere I go...Tonight...Tonight...Yeah, tonight...The city's restless...It's all around me...People in motion...Sick of all the same routines...And they need to go...They need to get away...Tonight...I put my makeup on a saturday night...I try to make it happen...Try to make it all right...I know I make mistakes...I'm living life day to day...It's never really easy but it's ok...Wake Up...Wake Up...On a saturday night...Could be New York...Maybe Hollywood and Vine...London, Paris maybe Tokyo...There's something going on anywhere I go...Tonight...Tonight...Yeah, tonight...People all around you...Everywhere that you go...People all around you...They don't really know you...Everybody watching like it's some kind of show...Everybody's watching...They don't really know you now...And forever...Wake Up Wake Up...Wake Up Wake Up...Wake Up Wake UpOn a saturday night...Could be New York...Maybe Hollywood and Vine...London, Paris maybe Tokyo...There's something going on anywhere I go...Wake Up Wake Up...On a saturday night...Could be New York...Maybe Hollywood and Vine...London, Paris maybe Tokyo...There's something going on anywhere...I goTonightTonightYeah, tonight...

i noe where i belong...i juz need time to get there... i miss where i belong... i really do... it feels like heaven..juz thinking of it...its hurts me deep inside but yet i can smile juz thinking bout the feeling... i miss you baby... i really do miss you alot... my big baby...hehe...

i hate myself...

2005-11-01T05:47:00.000-08:00

life hasn't been dat good... except d few hours where i actually get to haf fun... haiz... few hours in a week...... how nice is dat huh?? somethime u think life can be so perfect... tho some part of my life is wonderfull[d few hours la] nothing is perfect especially wen things turns ugly wit the ppl u haf been living ur whole life wit... wen u try to think bout how to make life easier for them they scold back... like asking my dad to fetch me so i dun haf to trouble my mum... somethimes i dunno wheather is better to think for them or not to think for them at all... wen i wanna thik for them.. i get scolded back in return... and the same thing happen wen i dun think for them... and i noe i cry alot... but wats wrong it. it... its not like i'm forcing it out or something... ppl do haf tears coming out wen their sad... including all adults... there's something wrong... now i'm not even feeling angry or anything... i dun even noe wat to feel.. to feel bad.. or sorry... i'm juz numb now... miriam.. if u're eading this... please call me now... i really need to talk to you... i miss you alot.. please... sayang, if u're reading this call me too please... i hate it wen i cant so anything else bout it... but sit here and start crying... sometimes i dun blame anyone hu calls me useless... sometimes.. i feel useles myself...and its really sickening... tot life will be easier... but i guess its juz the same... wen can i feel d way i do last time again...where i smile all the time... not smile at certain times wen i haf dat few hours out... [there r times where i really can smile and wen i feel really happy dear...] their r some ppl hu can make me smile by juz looking at them smile... hehe... ok.. talking bout dat.. makes me feel alot better...

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hehe....

2005-10-30T01:28:00.000-08:00

BABY I LOVE YOU........................

2005-10-26T22:21:00.000-07:00

yes.. i noe i told you i'll wait for you... i noe i said it... and i will... but dear wen i talk to you u seem ok wit thing being this way... which hurts me... but i love you so much... in this period of time, there will be there something dat is diferrent... and i dun think i can bare wit d diferrence for long... i noe u said u're juz losing d title... but i noe u do realise dat its a whole lot difeernet den juz losing a title... calling me babes?? isn't wat u normally call me... i feel so stupid... all i can do is sit here and cry wen i noe something is wrong... d worst part is i noe there something wrong and i'm not goin anything bout it... i cant do anthing bout it... i dun wan to talk to u bout it so i won upset you... and i cant talk to anyone else bout it... i hope u remember wat u promised me...i noe wen i say i cant leave without u... i do mean it... i dunno noe wat more to say... i told you i'm afraid of things... i'm taking a risk i promised myself never to take.. but i'm taking it... i'll always be there for you... i love you so much... i hate myself for not me not able to show it to you... i show you nothing... all dat i never wan u to noe is i love you... but i'm showing you nothing... and i wan to tell u.. but like you always say telling is not enuf... i'm trying my best to do all i can... u deserve alot more then me... but now like i always say.. i can lni afford my heart and my love to you... gimme time... being in this break now, may help... but i feel lost... i feel lonely and scared... and afraid... i'm sorry... i really am sorry for everything dat i've been doin wrong... but dear... i miss you calling me sayang, baby, and everything u usually do... i miss you saying good nite.. and i love you... i miss you saying i miss you... never since u enter my life, d impossible became possible... u dun noe how much it changed me... and i u do not noe how much i love you... u seriously do not know... i'll do juz anthing for u... i'll do juz anthing to be wit you... or even to juz see dat smile on ur face again... all do juz anyhting to turn back things like normal... i will haf d chance to tell you how much i love you... i noe it... juz gimme d chance to show it to you... dun take anything away from me... dun leave me hanging here like tiz... life will juz be dead... i love you so much... those r 3 words i always say... but they mean alot... very much... i love you... never ever leave me... i love youa dn i'll be there for u no matter wat happens... i promise...and you gotta noe dat i'm there always loving you and taking goos care fo you...i promise you... i juz wan to noe dat u still do love me as much as u always haf... and wish things will turn back normally soon... i love you...

i'm sorry...

2005-10-20T07:57:00.000-07:00

i'm really sorry k dear.. u noe dat i really wanna spend alot of time wit u oso... i realy do wanna spend time wit u.. i noe i'm not but i'm trying my best.. i really am... but dear tho we dun see each other as much as we wan to i still feell very close to you... and i'm happy bout dat... tho i wan to spend alot more time wit u dear... i'm sorry or making u feel this way... dear, u noe by ignoring me wen u're pissed makes me feel as bad... n i'm sorry oso for crying so much.. but sometimes i really cant help it... juz knowing dat u're upset or pissed.. its not even as pain as a knife goin thu me... not even close...babykins, i'm sorry for a lot of things u noe... i want to be d best thing dat ever happened to u... but dat i can oni hope for it and nothing more... i wan to be there to make u smile wen u're down... wan to be there to keep u safe wen u're in danger... i wan to be there to keep u warm in my arms wen u're clod... giving u a back massage wen u need wan... dear... i promise u dat one final day.. i'll be able to gif u everything u wan.. there and then... i promise k... and baby... i miss you alot now.. u're sick and u're not replying my msg... i think u're asleep... but if u're not...please reply k... i really need you... i really cant live without u... i'm saying dat not in the form of expression but i really do mean it... i love you dear.. i'm sorry...

damn...haha....hyper....

2005-10-18T23:02:00.000-07:00

okok...today i went to school..damn surprising huh?? neways... damn ppl went to tylor's coll shit... and i had to stay in school and all la... damn it la... but it was all cool and all... haha.. first...went...saw ash...haha... damn smiling all wen i saw her..haha... andways..then liz came and all la... hehe. then sha came in... and showing me her beuatiful smirks all la...haha.. damn funny... and came in oni...all starting laughing all.. as usual la...then i WAS suppose to go to someone's class... but no... someone had chemistry...haha.. anyways... during recess... liz was talking bout darshan and ash all... haha...damn funny... sniffing all haha... anyways... then cik thana ...had to talk to me all pn santira's shit.... damn it la...
haha.. then went to ash's class all..hah.. then sha was talking bout all her resilts stuff..haha... damn she got a 96.. for dunno wat... haha.. and she wants more...hehe... got thz really nice earring from her.. thanks she...haha... it was damn sweet...haha...haha... thanks... hehe... haha.. then got som eye contact wit haha... ash... damn funny... hehe... look some more.. haha... look at me...i'm looking to u...haha... *tui men ke ni hai kan kua lie.. kan kua lie kan kue lie... chen ni ke piua yen hen shin chai... haha... i love you la baby... hehhe.... muaxxxxx..... i'm i'm getting pissed wit al the hip hop class shit la... damn it... not enuf ppl...ishh.. i love you baby...

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2005-10-13T08:09:00.000-07:00

feeling really lost rite now... i dunno la... missing ppl and frens and all... anyways... ballet yeaterday has been really fun...hehe..its been long since i've gone to ballet..anyways, i came back at probably 9something i guess..... then went on d fon for a while...was talking cuz someone was leaving tmr... and yea... you left today... glad u're safe there now.. anyways, i'm missing u and all la..but u're having loads of fun... i noe..eating worms and raw things and all... yuckkkk.... and was talking to u this morning... then was msging u thu out... i was sitting on d floor d whole day...starring at the tv but not wachting anything... then miriam called...then chatted wit her for a while... then sat on the floor again... thinking bout ash in my house yeaterday...haha... some ppl had no transpot back...so ended up in my house.. but if was fun..haha.. watching my mum cleaning stuff... hehe... adn laughing wit her all d way... her cough is getting better la i guess... so u dun haf to worry... but still u owe her 5 lunch.... haha... it was really noce having u over and all... hope it'll happen again... its not hell in my house you noe...haha... ok.. then, u kinda reached to airport today... and was feeling kinda upset la... but i'm fine... dun u worry bout me.. i'll be fine... i'm still waiting for my fon to beep... but i guess it not really gonna beep till late late nite huh..its already 11.23 now..i'll wait... anyways...gtg now...i love all you ppl out there.. muaxxx... -carmen out-...

2005-10-12T02:13:00.000-07:00

hey...i haven been updating my blog for a long long time...gosh..hehe... go pmr is finally over and itts haeven..i guess la... haha...i hope things r working out in school and all...haiz... anyways... i haf to change my blog skin...rite in later again...muaxx...

we are one

2005-10-05T04:00:00.000-07:00

baby, am i reali wat u were lookin for?i know we r so right for each other but sometimes im scared....all the times we had, its not worth giving it up jus cos i haf my 'wonderful' moods... i noe u feel like i dont need u.. but its not true..want me to b corny? well u r the air i breathe.. the food i eat, the water i drink, and the life that keeps me alive.... yeah i can b real corny.. but its true..hearing yr voice laughin on the fone, its like music...not the banging kind i listen to.. but the kind u hear when u r so happy, relaxed and content...n knowing that i can make u laugh like that.. its so nice...ahahaha... like sugar on yr tongue after having to eat something bitter...i dun wanna keep talkin nonsense so i wil jus leave u waiting for another post k ? muax!!

screw it...

2005-09-10T09:36:00.000-07:00

...i cant sleep...n i'm damn pissed... my msn is somehow not working...and i cant talk to mimz...and i noe she needs my helps...mimz..i'm so sori..i'm not allow to use the fon..and wes..u to...sori... fucking msn...damn virus... i'm damn pissed rite... now... damn it... adn i'm suppose to be sleeping rite now...its like 12.40.. am...

2005-09-08T04:31:00.000-07:00

ahhhhh the love between us love between us...cameleons havind sex?? hehe... ur love is pure la dear..muaxx...hehe... i love you...

happy birthday...

2005-08-14T04:55:00.000-07:00

hey bella.... happy birthday...
hehe... u're damn old already wei..hehe.... but u're still my sweetie aites....hehe... hey, u noe i've known u since form 1... and we've been thu alot together but end up bein real good frens... lots of fights and lots good times... lots of joy and lots of tears... thanks for bein there for me... thanks for everyting... muaxxxx.....
HAPPY BITHDAY GIRL....

hey maroon peeps...

2005-08-05T06:45:00.000-07:00

hey ppl... u noe wen u guys were gettind installed... mimz me and belle was standing utside watching u guys... i'm so proud... hehe.. i noe not all of u r in the pic... but yea... i'm pround of all of you... hehe... especially nikki and julie... ahhh...n everyone else... damn pround... i lurve you guys... muaxxx....

Hidden Meanings

2005-08-04T22:06:00.000-07:00

Only certain ppl understand the hidden meanin of things.. such as.. baby, im hungry.. let's have lunch..onli the one i love knows the true meanin of this.. sayang, reason i said this is cos its true. i am hungry.. very very hungry.. i guess its been a while since i have eaten..=P! i see u so often,but yet often is not enuf.. u leave me wanting more and more.yet i know u wil never leave me.u haf everythin i ever wanted in the love of my life.everynite b4 bed we share our thoughts, our voices, our desires n our love.sayangkins u see me, the way no one else has ever seen me b4. most of every1 cant blive that i can b loving.. but im sure onli u can feel it.cos all the love i have inside me belongs to u.we were meant 4 each other as my hand fits yours like a glove,my lips to yrs like lipstick,and our hearts beat as one.together we burn for each other.we r a flame dear.. let us never put it out. i love u..

THANKS

2005-08-04T04:10:00.000-07:00

Ok, its been kinda long since I’ve update my site… too many thing have been happening… good and bad la… firstly I wanna say thanks to julie… girl, u’ve always been there for me and I’m really glad dat we’ve been thu so much..u noe I was telling belle today… after all I’ve been thu in my life the r oni a few ppl dat I noe will be there for me no matter wat happens [practically oni less then 5 ppl…]… n I noe dat I can count on you… there r so many thing I wan to talk to u bout…after so long we haven been having time to talk to each other… I miss you… I really felt really bad wen u said u miss talking to me (and kim) in the canteen dat day… thanks so much… u noe…no matter how much we draw apart… there will be a a scar in us dat will keep us remembering each other… and I will be there for you no matter wat happens… I promise you… FRENZ4EVA JULIE… muaxxxx……

And now Nique…nikki…ala…same la… anyways…nik..i noe I take you for granted all the time… I dunno whether you feel it anot…but I do… and I dun like it…well, this few days I haven been having time to talk to you… so yea… one thing I noe is u’re always there to remind me bout stuff and advicing me bout stuff and putting me on the rite track and all… thanks dear… I really wish I cud show you how proud am I to haf you as a fren… how proud am I to haf all you ppl as frens… you…Julie… and all of you… but I juz dunno how… and I’m sori bout dat… I noe I’ve disappointed you quite amount of time… I do realize… and I’m sori…I juz wanna say thanks for all you’ve done!!! I’ll show you guys wan day dat all u’ve guys r doin to help me is not a waste of time… thanks… and nik, I’ll always be there for you…even wen the world falls apart…

Next, su mei… mei…I noe you’re worried for me all the time… I do see it…and thanks for caring so much…u’re being such a nice fren…such a caring and loving… thanks for hearing me out wen I’m cry or wen I’m depress… I always turn to you and I feel bad for doin dat… mei, I promise you I’l study hard and make all you ppl proud… u study to yea… u haf no idea how much I’m proud of you… getting no1 in class… studying so hard… goin for ur goals…all of it mei… continue studying hard and get all ur A’s… my mum will be so roud…. My mum is already so proud… if u do get a;; ur A`s not oni my mum will be proud..i will to…and dun forget ur mum…she’ll be the second happiest person in the world…and the first will be you… thanks mei…for all u’ve done…and all the time u loved and cared… I’ll be there for you all the time…juz call out my name… and I’ll be there in a split second… muaxxxxxx

And last but not least, Ash… hehe… thanks for being there for me all the time… thanks for loving me… caring for me… worrying for me wen ever I’m in trouble… thanks so much, even tho I juz knew you… I still wanna thank you… I noe we fought quite a couple of times ever since we’ve meet… but we make it up and d day it self and we understand more bout each other… like I said *a fight dat doesn’t kill makes the frenship and relationship stronger*… sayang, I juz wanna say thanks..and I’m sori if I’ve ever hurted you… u’re one of those hu knows how to make me happy wit juz a smile… dear…I promise you dat I’ll be there for you all the time loving and caring for you… [and giving you lunch] Anyways, wanna say thanks again… I’ll give the best I can to you… juz for you to be happy and smile al the time… I love you…

*thanks so much… all of you… LOVE YOU PPL*… MUAXXX….. –TRUE LOVE LASTS FOREVER, TRUE FRENZ LAST FOREVER-…AND I’M SURE IT ALL WILL…

sleeping...

2005-07-04T02:40:00.000-07:00

Baby's sleeping now... dun wanna kacau... baby is damn tired... hehe...
Anyways, Hari Terbuka (open day)(report card day) is tmr... but wit and done wit it... haha...i feel so much better... feeling less stress... now i'm juz praying every1 will get thu wit it smoothy, frens and all la... i'll pray hard for u ppl...hehe...
Juz came back from tuition... was half way sleeping in class... gosh.. i'm tired... cried in school...too nervous... cried at home...haha... and later got tuition again... haiz... dun wanna eat dinner...i'm suppose to be doin my work... and i'll be taying back in school tmr for some work....hehe... i'm now like addicted to the radio... actually i'm addicted to songs...i bloody get damn emo after all dat... today isn't a really good day...but considered lucky... things wit parents r sorting out... had my baby wit me d whole time... there for me...hehe... [susu+kopi+cream] hehe...
Okla.. dats all for now... hehe... muaxxxxxxxxxxxxxx...........

OLIVER...........

2005-06-13T07:08:00.000-07:00

Oliver wa like the bom.... genting was so the best wei... i dun wanna go back...i was kinda relucten to go back... especially after a really great time there... ok... After exam we went ti Li Ee's house... which was like super huge...damn it was nice and huge... and she has a grand piano... and her doggie was so cute... haha..charmaine was scared of it... i safed her from it...muahahahaha....hehe... then we rushed back to FAB to catch d bus... BUT WE HAD TO WAIT FOR SOM PPL... HUH ASH.???Cahrmaine and i was like pulling ur hair off alredi... HHEHE... but things was cool later on... Were we like hyper in the bus... i noe i was trowing twisties at Elaine...hehe... in the bus..charmaine was sitting on me... Jin was sitting wit Li Ee...Cat was sitting wit Elaine...hehe...anyways ..wen we reach there...we went to burger king.... we bought like 7 packet of large fries... and Ash was like forcing her self to eat...yuck... and something was tickling my legs....hehe... Surprisingly...we almost finish the fries...haha... wen we were almost done... Charmaine and jin and Cat i think went to get ice-cream from MCD'S...damn Q damn long wei....hehe... but Elaine, Ash and i were having loads of fun up there... i started to show food in my mouth to elaine...muahahaha... then ash had to eat fries from my mouth....hehe....yuckkkkkk..... the show started at 5.30pm... it was nice...i like the toilet mirrors... charmaine liked them to...it was like all pokky...hehe..balls..*hehe*... the show ended quite late... had to ask my parents to come later...and later...hehe... in the bus...no wan wanted to sleep..sp i tried to sleep but it was toooooo noisy...haha... started making names for each other...hehe...wanna noe??

Me - Nutz
Charmaine - Susu
Li Ee - Cookies
Elaine - Alein...whaaaoooooooooooo.....
Catherine - Mouse...i like mouse better compared to cat
Jin - Mummy...hehe...like nanny... she like a big sis to all of us...she the MUM...

The.. other r all recorded down on Elaine's fon...go ask her la...hehe...

okla..gtg..its kinda....late..hehe...muaxxxx....nites....

(-).....

2005-06-09T19:47:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was so freaking tired... haha...but saw quite an amount of frens there... Was taking my grams out yesterday..so went to spend the day in 1utama... So, we bought tickets for a chinese monie "Kungfu Mahjong"...damn it was a BOM...its was so funny... laugh till my stomach hurted... haha..dun mind watching it again... after the movie... meet up wit Justin and Jagdeep... i was suppose to hang out wit them but grams was there so...jaga her lor...
Then, went to eat lunch in CHILLIS... damn full, tho i din really eat alot...but yea...damn full...hehe... was wit Aunt Eve and her neices..Malenie and Natelie... so comel..hehe... went for ice-cream after dat... *yuck*... Got bored do i went up to the bowling centre...meet p wit some frens there... Iman, Aqilah, Jennifer, Zetty... surprisingly Aisya and Liyana wasn't there.
Well, thu out i was smsing as usual... SHIT...i owe my sis credit... oops... hehe... We left 1U around...erm... i dunno...forgot.. but it was really late... ate in SS2 for dinner... and went for durian after dat... THE SMELL.... ~~~~~~~~~ god...i use to like it...but now...the smell is coing to often... and i'm hating it now...
Slept kinda late... very late actually...but was really happy... was playing monopoly wit sis... and became really hyper... Then, fell asleep... and woke up...'to do things' haha... so...hanged of around 2.35am... wasn't really able to sleep after dat... so slept around 3something... hehe...
Woke really late today... *yawn*... waiting for ur reply... *hint hint* I MISS YOU ALOT so badly dear...(happy to wake up every morning to see patrick rite beside me) ... probably ur still sleeping... take ur time la... i'll be seeing tomoro... if u can come la dat is... and on Sunday... SHIT EXAM... dun wanna think bout it...SSSHHHIIITTTTT.... I'M GONNA SCREW IT SO BADLY.... CHARMAINEEEEEE HELP ME... LIII EEEEEEEE......... SHITTTT....I'M GONNA DIE.......

feelings

2005-06-08T03:00:00.000-07:00

Okay... lets see... i'm bloody missing some1 so very much rite now... its like it has been forever since i've seen her... but the last time i saw her was tiz morning...haha...i think she like sleeping now...so dun wanna wake her up... (*not replying my msg*)... Ballet exam is on sunday...and i'm freaking out like crazy...i need Nique here wit me now...but NNOOOO... she all the way in Terengganu...WITHOUT ME...
I'm hugging my little new blue patrick and my red patrick loving now... and it reminds me of Manjuli hugging her's...haha... ireminds me the time wen she told me bout putting her bear in the microwave and burned it...sheesh... no love for her dolls... tsk...tsk... *go and burn ur DODOL next**ehemm*
I think i'm done wit my geografi project....so i dun haf to worrie bout dat...AAAAHHHHHHH...i'm goin to genting on sunday....how cool is dat...the thing dats not cool is..i haf school the next day.... This holiday has been kind boring... but hopefully sunday will change everything rite?? hehe... got ballet after tiz...haiz...i need to lose weight so badlt..ish... i'm putting on weight... aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......................

The 8 of June

2005-06-07T23:46:00.000-07:00

Went to school today...
Watch cheerlearders do their thing... *wink wink*...haha...
Was suppose to supply Manjuli wit water but...haha... oops....sori...
Then, was half way planning but outing for tomoro but..Ju din wanna plan... neither do i...so... haha... *You go ask ling to plan la... hahaha*
Next, ppl started poking me... everywhere... and everyone started to get hyper...
Penny was showing her BOOGERS to everyone... haha... on the tissue obviously...
Left d galery and went to lock myself in there...
Unfortunately, there was no lock...*ish... and the stairs was locked too....haha... i think... so was kinda upset * ehemm*... ='(
Belle called next, started off talking crap, as usual, then bout goe... wasn't really concentrating on anything i was doin... cuz...haha... *=)*
Then mum came... had to go home... =(
THEN, I GOT MY PREZZIE... FROM MY DARLING... MY LIL BLUE PATRICK.... AAAHHHHH THANKS SO MUCH..... I LOVE IT SO MUCH....I LOVE U TOOO....MUAXXXX.....
After bathing, i went to my aunt's house to c *April...my cousin... so cute...
Went to eat lunch in Secret R. ....
Came home... was goin to sleep...but...dun wan... so...started smsing... and went on9...
Got tuition later... in section 14...Razman's tuition... but Jen Nee isn't goin...
After dat, i haf ballet... *joy... =l ....
I LOVE MY BLUE PATRICK...THANKS.... *I LOVE YOU*....

ToP Of The WorLd

I HATE BEING SICK

get all soon...

i'm rough.. gosh...

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fucking lord....

...*smile*...

at the begining...

eyehhhh....

DIRTY DANCING

rocky nite...

High on a hill was a lonely goatherd

ur the best

babykins....read all the posted ups k...

baby...

u're not alone...

i miss you baby...

i miss you baby...

i neeed to leave to somewhere i belong and noe i'll be albe to stay happy...

i hate myself...

hehe....

i'm sorry...

damn...haha....hyper....

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we are one

screw it...

happy birthday...

hey maroon peeps...

Hidden Meanings

THANKS

sleeping...

OLIVER...........

(*-*).....

***feelings***

The 8 of June

...smile...

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